THREE

There's some one in my life who I've known since I can remember whom means the world to me. I've always had a crush on my him since we were little kids and some where along the way I fell for him, like truly fell for. The problem is I can't tell him without feeling like a total idiot. I tried to but he was drunk and seemed to have forgotten I told him the next day when I said something to him. It's actually the second time he broke my heart. The first time was a few years back when we were kinda together and he said he thought he loved me and then within days he wasn't even speaking to me anymore. He wasn't avoiding me but he treated me like I was a phase. Getting my heart broken by him hurts more now than it did the first time but it hurts. I don't know what to do with him. I just wanna go back two years ago when we spent Christmas together and we just genuinely enjoyed our time together. Hopefully one day we'll have a true chance together but I don't think we ever will unfortunately. One thing I do know though is he will forever have a special place in my life and I love him wholeheartedly. No one can take that away from me. If only he thought of me like I think of him, every single day. 3 down, 362 to go.